Not never will I forget what it feels like to be alone
To be forgotten
To feel small
To be an option
Not never will I forget when I had nothing
Not a dollar
Not an eighth of gasoline
Not a bite to eat
Not never will I forget feeling unloved and unnatural
Seeing a 20 year marriage fail
And seeing what it does to the human heart
Not never will I forget the sound of death
And the whisper of promise of a new life
And the lesson of Gods plan and His “mysterious ways.”
Not never will I ever compare myself again
Because I know my resilience is unmatched
I know my strength is unparalleled
I am a wishing well of hope and I am open to pennies of prayers being planted in my optimism.
Never will I ever give up
Or sit down
Or back away
Deterrents are my comic relief
Not never will I forget I am a fighter
My flaws are grotesquely beautiful
My courage is my camouflage
Can I fail?
And I don’t care.
And I don’t care if you laugh
Or if you say you told me so
Or if you call me naive
Not never will I have not one regret.
I am here
And with every intentional breath
My purpose grows
And you better never forget that.