Who Is the Queen in the Room?


Do feelings of inferiority prevent you from moving to the next level? No? Are you sure? In the reverse, do you have too much confidence and fail to relate well to others? Do you have the courage to find the happy medium?

The funny thing about arrogance and low self-esteem is they are opposites but they can create the same end result.    If you think too highly of yourself you will drive others away. If you think you’re beneath others, you will drive them away because they will believe what you believe. They will accept the ideal you sold them through the demonstration of your actions. The end result is involuntary solitude.

“Alone is such a nebulous state when one is queen.”
~ Rae Carso, The Crown of Embers

Do you recognize your own regal nature? Do you accept your nobility? If you do, do you force others to recognize it also?

1 Peter 2:9
But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood,  a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.

You have the authority to change life. Whether it be yours or someone else’s, the authorization is yours. It was given to you. Conduct yourself in a regal manner. It has nothing to do with your monetary circumstances. My mom used to say, “You can’t be a king with no gold.” I beg to differ with mom a bit. Wisdom, devotion, and emotional relatability have a indispensable  unparalleled currency. I really believe that. There is something so valuable about someone you can trust, someone who is kind, and someone who is warm.


There are different kinds of kings and queens. Choose who you want to be.

“Circumstance does not make the man;it reveals him to himself.”
~As A Man Thinketh, James Allen

When you are nervous, impatient, challenged or afraid …just ask yourself who the queen in the room is. Empower yourself and encourage yourself or Shut Ya Mouth and Call Me Ugly.

By: Shaun Nickens

My 2am

Filter through the filters
See the beauty raw and exposed
In its vulnerability
Flickering flames
Incense burning in my bathroom sink
Can’t blink, let alone sleep
Writing between the lines in my mind
My imagination running and wrinkling my sheets
Shared submissions that didnt make it to the grave
Fear will comb your hair
With daydreams that do not obey the setting of the sun.

My 2am has…
One fresh cut long stemmed pink rose
Thorns exposed
One fresh tear coming down my nose
Still beautiful
Cannot be compared to a passion flower or a lily
It stands alone


My 2am
Is art by Teresita Fernandez
And my own sloppy sketches
Poetry by Nikki

And tap dancing on my kitchen floor
Like Savion Glover

Just anything to fall in a deep sleep

My sloppy sketches

Thoughts of strong arms and warm covers
Fresh out of the dryer
Sprinkled with baby powder.

My 2am ain’t cinematic
Ain’t no soft music and perfume
Ain’t no Sade tunes
Ain’t no rhythm and blues

My 2am turns into 3am and 4:09

My 2am would rattle your spine.

My 2am is mine.

By: Shaun Melissa Nickens


If You Slack You’ll Lack

“Beware of false prophets who come disguised as harmless sheep but are really vicious wolves.
-Matthew 7:15

I had someone once say to me, ” I wouldn’t lie. I am a God-fearing woman.”
I bet you can guess what happened after that! They proceeded to lie to me. Some people don’t serve the same Master you do. Some people say things like that and then pray for forgiveness because their actions are malicious and feed into a part of their nature that they thought they buried.

Know in your heart that you have fear, respect and awe for something greater than yourself. Know what you will and will not tolerate. These things are easy to say and extremely challenging to execute. People who know me are probably thinking, “Shaun says all these motivational things or poetic things but she has problems too.” They would be right!! I have tons of things I imagined differently. They will only become “problems” if I give up. I am an emotional,  sensitive, opinionated, frustrated wreck from time to time. What I will tell you is this ship doesn’t sink!

Today I went out in the sunshine and ran. While in the park following the track I was thinking. Do you remember Grimms Little Red Riding Hood? She was devoured because she strayed from her path. She was distracted by something pretty (flowers), someone seemingly harmless (the wolf) and all of a sudden she forgot what she was supposed to be doing!


There are things you have to do to counteract anything that doesn’t coincide with your desires and the Creator’s will. You know exactly what those things are. If you slip up you will flip out! You may not have your  “crazy moment” as often as I do but it will happen. If you slack, you will lack the things you really really want in this life.

My pastor, Reverend Henry Simmons says, “God will answer all of your prayers. It is either Yes, No, or Wait.”


That reminds me of a stop light. Don’t run that light!! The yellow isn’t “wait”  but its even better. It’s CAUTION, SLOW DOWN. Just wait for direction.
There are ramifications for being disobedient. Most of us survive those ramifications and some of us do not. Don’t take that gamble.

Recognize the fangs of wolves who have everything to gain from your loss! Finally, key into your survival instincts.

“Alonzo Harris: To protect the sheep you gotta catch the wolf, and it takes a wolf to catch a wolf.”
-Training Day

Try your best to be resilient. Some of the women in my circle are strong and superior to suffering because they refuse to be a victim! They’re tough as nails. That doesn’t mean they don’t cry or vent but they are classy and controlled at least 72% of the time!

Be aware and be courageous. Know you will have slips. Just try your best not to fall and stay down.



What Did I Miss?

A high school buddy of mine gave me the number and access code to a group prayer line. Her church started it to encourage its members and keep them on a spiritual journey throughout the week when they are away from the sanctuary. At the time, I myself needed an extra kick in the butt so I would call in occasionally.


Normally, I would call in at noon. There is a 6am conference, noon and 6pm. At 6pm I am at the office so that doesn’t work. I remember thinking, ” I damn sure ain’t gettin’ up at 6am.” So noon was my only option.

Yet, when I call at noon I am getting myself ready for work. I am busy with the hustle of family. I am not focused. The TV is on in another room. I’m folding laundry or washing dishes. I’m doing everything but calming my mind and spirit to join the presence of God. Also, sometimes it would seem like the facilitator was busy too. Or maybe they were just praying routinely. No disrespect but it didn’t move me. I still called because I just needed to feel closer to God and his believers.

The other day, I got up at 6am. I was restless. My heart was disgruntled. I wasn’t dreaming so I wasn’t sleeping.

I got up and called the prayer line at 5:57 and waited with my phone muted. A male voice came on the line and began with verses for us to review at our leisure. He went over the meanings of the verses and how those scriptures are related to one another specifically to guide us. There was a theme and he led us in reverence and meditation for 15 minutes. I felt like I went to a church drive thru! It was like a microwaved sermon! I immediately felt a new energy and vigor and POSITIVITY that had been absent from me (or I was absent from it) for some time. My pastor calls that “Preaching and teaching!”

I say all that to say…

What are you missing out on because you are too lazy, unfocused, or undisciplined to attain? What blessings are you “sleeping on?” Sometimes you are experiencing an earthquake in your life because He has to force you to move out of the house of complacency. Your feet were planted there. You wouldn’t move unless he knocked down your glass menagerie and seemingly destroyed everything around you. Why don’t you see that he never destroyed YOU?

You …no WE have to get it together!  Do you eat right? Do you hydrate? Do you restore your temple by getting enough rest? Do you lay your clothes out in advance?  Is your car clean? I went to private school and my father was in the military. I had to be up at 6:30am, room spotless, uniform ironed,and shoes shined.  I ate Special K with a half of grapefruit, Farina or grits and eggs every day. What the hell happened to me?!

Life! Luxury! Laziness! Loss! No excuse for catching up instead of keeping up. Ask yourself what you aren’t disciplined enough to attain. Decide if you want abundance or a life of sleepless nights because He is trying to move you out of misery.

Please don’t wake up at 80 and say, “What did I miss?”

By: Shaun Melissa Nickens