Happy New Year!
I got up this morning to a text alert from my bank. I get messages from my financial institution when any money is deducted from my checking account. I can snooze my alarm but there is something magical about that quiet little “beep.”
“Who the hell is this? Paging me at 5:46 In the mornin’, crack of dawn an’
Now I’m yawnin’, wipe the cold out my eye
See who’s pagin’ me and why” – Notorious B.I.G “Warning”
So I check my account and it happened! They jacked me again! I pay $15.00 a month for a gym membership that I haven’t used it 2 months! Ashamed but determined I jumped out of bed. I got my daughter’s bag packed, packed lunch, cleaned, and then finally packed my hot pink Aeropostale gym bag. No excuses.
I also cancelled my subscription to American Greetings (no one appreciates internet cards), the mail in book club I have for the kids(I buy books all the time in stores), and my free credit report (no comment.) My grandfather used to say, “Either s#!t or get off the pot!”
Its a colorful and effective expression. There’s no time to procrastinate. I’m also not doing a resolution. I’m not trying to lose weight. I just want to be healthier and less stressed.
What do you do for yourself? When im alone I listen to music loud. I am scantily clad. I am honest. Sometimes I just listen for the answers to my prayers in silence. I used to be a gym rat.I’d stay in there at 3am and leave when the sun came up. Its a good time to clear your head.
Before children, relationships, expectations, failures, and obligations. ..who were you? What did you do for yourself? My mother made clothes and dreamed of being a pilot. My father builds models and customizes them. A friend of mine is a fabulous makeup artist as a hobby. I was an 8 year old practicing my pushups, weapons, and punching combinations for self defense class on Saturday. I was calm, reflective, meditative, somewhat serene adolescent. Then as a young adult I revisited Muay Thai and personal training. I may be far from that now but I will take some time for me every once in awhile.